Bwister

Upon my fingew a bwister did pop!
And den I cwied and cwied fow a wong time
My wittwe eyes aww sad and wed
Tause I could die and stuff

And den,
And den,
And den,
No mowe wowwipops fow me.

~Sniff~

Ever the Bard .. my Katie-did

My spirit-family always knows when I need them. What to say, when to say it and why .. even if they don't know "why". I cannot even explain to anyone how deeply my love and soul is kith - not kin - to them .. even the lost souls. But two are closer than the rest, most of them going off to live brilliantly, crash and burn, etc .. far and away from me .. but still in my heart all the same. Bonds never to be broken. Unconditional and Forever.

From my sisarooni .. 10 Earth years but a Galaxy length of time spent together. Thank you.

"All the talk of lyrics and such reminded me that I was thinking of you the other day. The song "Crash and Burn" by Savage Garden came on in the supermarket. The lyrics always remind me of you, well.. of us... and you know I love you!

"Crash and Burn"

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apartI can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

And a song that I just find pertinent and helpful... also by Savage Garden

"Affirmation"

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument.
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you.
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem.
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.

I believe in Karma, what you give is what you get returned.
I believe you can't appreciate true love til you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side.
I believe you don't know what you get until you say goodbye.

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality.
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy.
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul.
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold.

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair.
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires.

I believe in Karma, what you give is what you get returned.
I believe you can't appreciate true love til you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side.
I believe you don't know what you get until you say goodbye.

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness.
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed.
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists.
I believe in love surviving death into eternity.

I believe in Karma, what you give is what you get returned.
I believe you can't appreciate true love til you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side.
I believe you don't know what you get until you say goodbye.

Goodbye.

Eloquent Elan

Lazy words syphoned forth to spew, mildly, wildly amongst the flow of diaphonous emotional sewage.
But did she mean them? Were they the splinters of self lost within the shelter of her ever-altering spirit?
Is her *Friend* speaking to her again because slowly the world turns back to the centrifugal thrust from gravity?

(What the hell does that mean, I wonder? ::grin::)

Born a day, born a night, come to see, come to flight
Those of hope, those of joy, those related, come abuoy
Tender mercy, given fast, screams of pain, shade the past
Kill me softly, kill me sweet, kill my essence, eat my meat
I am Unger, I am Ra'al, I am of you, I am Gaul (Gall?)
Here is Truth, Here is Now, Here is Lord, Here is Vow
I shall be, I shall see, I shall scree and I shall fee
All your heart, all your mind, all your soul, all you find
Gone for good, gone for bad, gone is evil, gone is mad
Caught the river, caught the fate, caught the scent, not too late
Retire my ghost, upon the shore, whence my mate, came once before

** Note: Whew, it's been a long while since HE decided to draw me from myself to give life to his "seeing". I'm not certain for whom this belongs to .. perhaps (newest word) it is for me? ::soft, sighing, deep-winded laugh:: I don't think so but it is someone close to me. Not too shaky after this one .. which is a little odd in itself. HE spoke to me this weekend to advise and it was just the barest breath of pain. I wonder if I'm dying and so the answers to unspoken questions are easier to hear? Maybe it just means I've actually beaten some of walls that surround me down enough for HIS light to covet my galaxy again? In any case I welcome HIM back to me. I've missed HIM greatly and a burden feels slowly lifting. Sweet bond of otherness, I love you.

Impoverished

Sorrow cascades from the gentle slope of shoulder,
Resting like beads of worry around my self,
Taunting me as my head bows in total submission,
To what was, to what is and to what will be.

Empty the vial of life and love.
Empty the cup I drink from, dry.

A thirst stronger than want, need, desire,
RAMS through throat, whimpering in agony,
Rakes loose the debris of acid burned soul,
Slaking the rage that revels and levels.

Empty the vessel that pumps life through spirit.
Empty the hands I open before me.

Supplication to the impoverished being that is.

Me.

Below's a quote from one of the numerous Happy New Year's e-mail's I received from friends and family. Thanks, Scot, I decided to expand and expound upon it, personally:

"Beauty may be skin deep, but ugly goes clear to the bone." - Redd Foxx

Funnily enough many superficial people cannot understand this concept. Maybe not quite so funny. As maybe not quite so many don't understand either .. the rest are just too cold to care.

I find it interesting that there are still people who feel the outer shell of a person to be the only real worth and judge them accordingly. And any gimps devalue them more. I'm glad for all the scars, imperfections and afflictions that have happened to me. It's helped weed out the emotionally diseased, dishonest and unfaithful people I have never missed in my world.

I feel sad for them though. They've lost out on possible cool times, deep and heart-wrenching emotions and the universal exploration of soul that comes only with brush of the Galaxy that is me. ::giggle:: Of course it may have caused them to crash and burn as blunt repartee, wit and a discourse born of mental haemorraghing and canny, impish coquettishness invariably tends to do.

Oh well. Much ado about nothing .. in the end. All of my love to the friends, family - spirit or real and the other loved ones in my life. I thank you for another year of your touch to mine and a heart that loves, unconditionally treasured rarity - unconditional love>, that which is the all of me .. as mine does for you.

~ Cher ~
Numinously and Breathlessly Awaiting the New Year and Hope
January 2nd, 2006